“I have a lot to say.”
—I wrote that in my phone a couple weeks ago when I really began to consider starting this journal. I’ve always been a writer, but for the last nearly nine years, my primary focus has been raising young children. Now that my two oldest are in school after homeschooling for a few years, I am home with my toddler all day dreaming, scheming, contemplating, and maybe saying funny things to myself.
Why a Substack?
I’ve spend a lot of time wondering if I should start this public journal and not being ready and wanting everything to be perfect…and then my son said to me the other night, “Mom, you always have really great things to say,” just a few days after I wrote “I have a lot to say,” in my phone, and, as if an answer to a question I had only asked myself in private (wait—do I have things to say?), it lit a small spark in my heart and rekindled the desire to share and explore in a more public setting.
What will it be about?
It will be informal and honest and very much not perfect as I haven’t gotten much sleep in the past nine years and still certainly don’t. I write at nap times and just before laying my tired body down into bed. As I don’t do Facebook or Tik-Tok and my Instagram is primarily moments of joy with my children, I see it very much as both a personal journey and an attempt to engage with more grown-ups about the things that I think are important to many of us—art, spirituality, intentionality, curiosity, wonder, etc. I want to talk about Tolkien and poetry and parenting (without all the dogmatic crunchiness), being a highly sensitive person in a culture that often just hurts, therapy, small-town art town life, tarot, the moon. I am a Gemini sun and my interests are all over the place; I hope to find my niche and start conversations that aren’t veiled by a beauty filter. Let’s journey through the messy fields of modern parenthood and life and then take time to go outside and marvel at the sky.